Author: Bec

  • It is okay to be me

    I spent last week in DC; it was an amazing trip and a great addition to my summer adventures. I was grateful for the time to explore a new city, bask in the humid heat, and learn more about my culture and history. It was also a very friendly and…

  • Stuck

    Sometimes I feel like I am always going to be stuck in the phase of hoping for a life that I do not have. That has not always been true, I have achieved my dreams of intense and free spontaneous solo travel. It’s something that I still seek but I…

  • Possibility

    I moved to Boston for a time and became involved in the music community there. My violin teacher taught me much more than violin. Due to many past negative experiences growing up in the music world, I struggle intensely with performance anxiety, even to to point where I would be…

  • Everything I am

    My mind is tangled with questions… so many questions. A wise friend once told me that the more one seeks answers, the more one is left with questions. I have found this to be frustratingly true. Journeys through the physical and metaphysical realms often leaves one with less conclusions and…

  • A Whole Without a Core

    I have been pounding on the keys of the external interface at the expense of my internal one. Somuch has been going on around me that the movements within me have become illusive,indistinguishable, hidden. I try and listen to the undercurrents but only manage a minute or twobefore my external…

  • Inner compass

    Continuing on this idea of moving through darkness from my previous post, I would like to delve further into this concept. If one cannot see their surroundings, what are they basing their actions on? For it certainly cannot be based on what they see. I believe one must rely on…

  • Moving in the darkness

    I don’t intend for this title to sound as daunting as I think it might. There is a power in the darkness. There is a power in not knowing. There is a power in uncertainty. What does one do when a light in a room goes off? They freeze, don’t…