My mind is tangled with questions… so many questions. A wise friend once told me that the more one seeks answers, the more one is left with questions. I have found this to be frustratingly true. Journeys through the physical and metaphysical realms often leaves one with less conclusions and less certainty than before. I, myself, believe that the lack of certainty and increase of questions does not mean one has failed in the journey. Rather, the journey acts as a tool for expansion, allowing one to grow within many realms of thought. This allows one to make decisions, not with greater certainty in the outcome, but with greater capacity to navigate the often unexpected outcomes.
What I am proposing is not satisfying and causes me even today much angst. I believe there is still more to be untapped here. But I will leave that thought there for now. Back to my mind being tangled with questions… these specific questions are ones of doubt and fear. I have the version of myself in my head and who I want to be and then this idea that the version of myself I desire must submit to the reality I exist in. On a podcast today, someone said something along the lines of, “you can’t be anything you want, but you can be everything you are.” I am on a journey to discover everything I am and have the courage to choose to be that person.