Continuing on this idea of moving through darkness from my previous post, I would like to delve further into this concept. If one cannot see their surroundings, what are they basing their actions on? For it certainly cannot be based on what they see. I believe one must rely on an inner sense of direction, an inner compass if you will. One must rely on internal instincts that may have been left dormant for years while one took a path accepted and praised by society, but a path that is ultimately a lie to who the person is inside. Or at least, a path taken to appease an external context rather than align with inner workings.
Allowing oneself to follow this inner compass might seem completely foreign. One might experience anxiety, stress, and a need to get back on the external path. That only makes sense. But where is all of that angst coming from? Internal or external? If you were stripped of everything and everyone around you, how would you feel about your desires? thoughts? choices? Does being genuine mean aligning with the ideas and desires of those around you? Or aligning with an internal sense of self? How does one align with an inner self when the self itself was created by the outer?
An internal compass must be developed. It is difficult, scary, and discouraging in many ways. To listen to a voice that has been seemingly developed by so many other voices… is there another voice that lies beneath the layers of the outer voices? When no one is around… no one is watching… you are in your own atmosphere, who speaks to you? What do they say? Do you align yourself with that voice only in thought but not in action? Why?